One of the hardest parts of sitting in a church service is… well the whole thing. It all sounds good and the realization that I was once the guy that was leading, and teaching, and praying, an doing all the church things. I feel like that was a whole other world, that person was different, he was excited and inovative and worked hard at God and church and all of it. I want my life back. There is one problem with this thought process. I am in my life and it is what it is.