Watching cartoons can be an interesting lesson in life. I think of all those times when there are holes in a boat. So many times in the cartoon no matter how much they character tries to plug the holes another one pops out and the water starts to come in, no matter how many times they try and plug the hole another one opens and more water trickles in till they go down.
I feel like that’s where I am right now.
Don’t get me wrong, I know I can’t plug the holes, I know that I have to wait for what God brings, I know that what he brings may not look like anything that I would have expected. I get that but there are times that I wish things would be clear cut, that there would be no holes in the boat. There are times that I wish my walk with God, that the journey that my family and I are taking was more like a slot car track than an ocean.
See slot cars are great, you put the track together and they go around the track, from beginning to end they go where they are supposed to go, round and round, very predictable.
Life however is more like the ocean, no set path just decisions to be made and taken and consequences to be lived out. Sometimes the consequences are good and sometimes they are bad but they are usually a direct result of the decisions that we make. I say usually because I’m still trying to figure out the past few months. I know that the trying of our faith is supposed to make us stronger, to give us patience and make us more able to fulfill the call that God has placed on Christians as a whole. Still it can be overwhelming.
I have talked in the past about the idea of God not allowing more than we can handle. I have wondered if he pushes us because we don’t really ever know what we can handle. I understand and know that it’s a part of faith, faith in him that he does know what is best for us and what will make us into the people he wants us to be. Still I have to wonder. I have to question if there really is a point to all of this. I have to wonder why? I have to take it on faith that God knows what he is doing, but I must admit that there are really times when that faith wears thin. I read things in God’s word and I take them to heart but life goes one outside of the Bible and that’s where the problem comes in. Those things have happened, the principles that they teach are timeless but the living those principles and really taking them to heart is not easy.
We need God to open some doors, I need him to show me more than glimpses and little drops of encouragement.