Amazing how three little letters can sum up the way you are feeling, or not feeling at this point.
So much has been going on and I’m just tired.
I am not sure what normal looks like for us. See I had an idea of what life was supposed to be, and I have to tell you that by the time I was 36 I expected to be in a very different place, instead I feel like we have to start all over again, and I feel like it’s my fault. Like if I had been better and closer and more of the man God wanted me to be and less the guy that has to control things then God could have used me for more that I would be where I am supposed to be and my family would be better off for it.
I asked on my face-book status what normal was well I’m really not sure what normal is any more. I know what I thought it was, I just pray God will allow His normal to be here soon and that we are willing to walk those steps.