I hate being stuck, in all of it’s forms being stuck just is not something I enjoy. I hate it when I get a song stuck in my head, I hate it when I’m stuck in a book because I really want to finish it but I just can’t get into it, I can’t stand it when I’m playing sudoku and I get stuck or when I get stuck at a crossword puzzle or when I’m playing a video game, but perhaps the absolute worst way to be stuck these days is to be stuck away from my family. I know what it is to be away from them and I hate every second of it.
I came home to clean the house and do some stuff that I wanted to do on Saturday, enter Snowmageddon or Snowpocolypse or whatever you want to call it. I was going to go get the family on Sunday but I couldn’t dig out because of my back, I thought it would be best to rest my back and try again today woke up with my back still hurting and with a cough. I am stuck in Gaithersburg and my family is Stuck in Oakland and I just miss them.
I know that I need to be safe, and that I need to make sure that I don’t do anything stupid, I have to be able to take care of my family when J gets home and if I’m unable to move or am sick I wont be able to do what needs to be done. Still I am a person that LIkes to do and I have to say all this having to not do because of being stuck just doesn’t work for me.
I think i’m supposed to learn to be anxious for nothing, I think i’m supposed to be content with what God is doing, I think I have to walk the steps he has chosen and leave more in HIs hands. I have been trying to learn that these past two years, and while I have to some extent I don’t think I ever really will learn it, I don’t think humanity is capable of learning all the things we need to learn. It’s why we are to walk with God and why we are to work on our salvation. It’s the part of our life with God that is the hardest. Being content, being open being calm and in Him moving and having our being in Him instead of our own brains and issues.