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Last night was a great night… at first… J was awake, we talked we held hands it was nice. The problem is she was supposed to be sleeping. It’s so funny how the human mind works, how the lack of proper sleep can render normal tasks that it can usually handle with ease into a pile of useless sticks. Last night J wanted me to sing to her, I have led worship in churches have thousands and thousands of songs on my ipod, sing along to my favorite bands without missing a word, and wouldn’t you know last night I couldn’t remember whole songs. I could remember parts of them, the chorus or the first verse but when it came time to singing the whole song I just drew a blank. I spent over an hour looking up lyrics to songs that I know online only to find that I had forgotten the tune to some of the songs. How inadequate I feel to the task sometimes. I want to do what she needs me to do and be here to help her rest and sleep but I can’t even remember a few songs to sing.
We spent the night talking and me playing with her hair and humming and singing trying to calm her down. They won’t give her the same stuff that they were giving her to let her rest, because they want her to be solid in her breathing, so they gave her an antihistamine which can have the side effect of drowsiness, yes can have however with J it just made her wired and jittery. We had to tell them not to go with that one any more.
I told her she would be the life of the party with a little weed. She is kinda funny when she’s loopy and just sorta rambles about things and loses track of things. She has remained completely concrete and sure of one thing. HUNGER. All she can think about is food and recites on an hourly basis at least what she would like to eat.
- Tube is out she is talking and has said she has no sore throat.
- Loopy from the drugs and fatigue
- HUNGER this is in big type and a good thing she wants to eat.
- Kidney’s still are a concern they may do dialysis again today
- Surgery is out for the time being they want to get her back in for it at a later time
For those keeping up on my Facebook page the nurse from yesterday is history and we will not have to have her any more.
Please pray for the bullet points, also pray that I will be able to anticipate and be here when she needs me to be and that I won’t go a little loopy, well no more loopy than I already am.