six o clock in the morning

Last night they brought me a reclining chair and I was able to stay in the icu room with J. It was so important that I get to do that. I am so grateful for the family that surrounds me during the day, even if there are those times that I want some time with just us, thats what makes the nights so important. I am able to be with her and that is good. I can talk to her and pray for her and read to her.

Blood level is up but still not where it’s supposed to be. I am also concerned because she is starting to swell up a little bit. This really scares me, they tell me that she is swelling up because of all the “product” that they are giving her. They also told me that it is going to get worse before it gets better because she can’t walk around.

Why do things have to get worse before they get better? Why do things have to get worse at all?

I want to hear her voice, I want to see her smile, I want to hold her hand and have her hold mine back. I want to drive her to work today and pick her up from work tonight. I just want my family back as a whole.

More to come as the day wears on when I talk to the Dr’s i’ll let you know

5 responses to “six o clock in the morning

  1. Aaron,

    Know that there is a church back here that is praying. We have let the staff and prayer line know and many calls and prayers are being lifted asking for God’s grace to work through your doctors.

    Jim & Catherine

  2. Hang in there…Danielle and I are praying for J and you. We saw Danielle’s mom go through a similar thing with renal failure and lots of IV fluids that made here swell badly. The uncertainty scares you to death, but you can pull through this, too. Lot’s of people thinking and praying for you guys.

  3. Aaron,
    We at KTS- Elementary and Lower Middle School- are praying for Joyce and your family.
    Please know that we are here for you.
    Robin Handleman
    Reading Teacher

  4. Liberty assembly is praying for you and J. I know your scared to death..cling to the father his hand is reaching out to you. He never leaves us or forsakes us.

  5. Aaron, no one but the Lord knows exactly what you’re going through right now.
    Joyce was a friend of mine at Southeastern. She is… a big bucket full of life!
    My wife and I will be praying for her and we will ask our church to be praying for her… and you. You need God’s grace to go through this…no matter what the other side holds. If He heals her… if He doesn’t.
    I remember when the doctor told my former wife and I that our son was dead. I walked out into the hallway, and almost without thinking about it I raised my hands to God and said, “You’re still good!” I realized then and there that just because bad things happen to people doesn’t make God bad.
    We live in a broken world full of sin and pain and sickness. I’m just sorry Aaron, that you have to be experiencing so much of the latter two.
    Be strong brave warrior! Thanks for the blog.

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