It is hard to believe but we are going into 2 years away from regular ministry. Sure I’m doing the childrents ministry coordinator thing, and while it is ministry my heart is not in it. I love the kids and the people but it’s not who I am.
I have been praying for a while now about what to do, and where to go. We are looking at a change coming soon and so I want to know what that change will be, enter an old friend.
They want to mother a church in a college town in WV. J and I have both said that I will not be a staff pastor any more. It’s time to move on in some way and I have great ideas and ways of reaching a generation for Christ. The real problem is the fear factor in all of it.
I want to be open and I believe that God brings people and places into our lives in such a way that we can and will be able to see clearly what he wants. I don’t for a minute believe anything happens by chance. When this friend of mine and I connected again I had no idea what could be coming. Now I wonder if it’s time to try something totally different, totally new. I want to be in Gods will and I want to step but I am afraid.
The past is a specter that looms large. God has changed me a lot and I am a different person, at the same time will others see that. I believe I can do this and succeed at it, the question remains will people from before believe I can or will they say it will never work, and does it really matter?